I don’t know about you but when I walk into my local Chapters/Indigo store I actually feel all the tension and worry vacate my body with every exhale. Being completely surrounded by all the creative energy and endless knowledge contained within the walls of this modern day sanctuary makes my heart sing!
I feel connected, inspired and in awe of everything I have yet to learn. Am I alone in this? I hope not…I have a book and paper obsession… and I always have to check out the collection of notebooks and journals, they are my favourite! What is it about a beautiful notebook that makes my heart skip a beat?
I resist the temptation to bring them all home with me every time. When I do bring them home, I can’t bring myself to use them right away. I used to think it was because have a specific purpose…or they were to pretty to tear up for grocery lists! I now know that it is out of fear! I know some of you are thinking I am ten shades of crazy right now….afraid to use a pretty notebook???? If you are one of those people who can’t relate, feel free to move on if you must…no judgement.
Marianne Williamson says it best…
I don’t know about you all but I have always felt the weight of this unidentified calling, like wearing a heavy coat that is always three sizes too big.
I was terrified of finding and owning my voice! I haven’t quite figured out how all the pieces fit together yet and I’m learning that that’s okay.
What matters is I use my voice and God given talents to connect with others. Whether its using a paintbrush with my clients, encouraging my students in a workshop. Creating blog posts like this for the world to see or writing the rough draft in a beautiful crisp notebook with a sharp #2 pencil.
With all of this I am telling the universe I am open and ready for what God has in store for me.
How about you?
Is fear holding you back from trying something new or breaking old habits?
I would love to hear about it.